Now I Understand...

Bar close to the select few who work at bars is quite possibly the best time of the night for us. Especially when dealing with douches who think its cool to wear way too much cologne and act like a huge fucking tool!!! Trust me ill put you in your place at the door! As the night progresses I see that i am training some of the elite that Milwaukee has to offer! Which is cool in its own way that I am trusted to make sure these guys know what the hell they are doing. Anyway the night hits its peak when my brother from another mother came back! With two mongoloids of men who could easily kick my ass... Anyway i think that the night was going well when the lights went on and last call was made then realized how absolutely starving i was and needed some food before i had to pay off my rediculous parking ticket... But before that would be the discussion of the "american dream" between myself and some of my friends at grecian. I think that debating the main stream effect of the american dream on people and how it is perceived is the wrong conversation to be had with a group of people who have been drinking heavily but i was reminded by my buddy that it is so fucking funny to start the conversation and just watch where it leads... And you know what he was right!!! I will leave this like it is and start a whole new post just about the conversation at a later date!!!

Seriously...

So over the course of a few words fads come and go like the seasons as the most of us have surely realized! beanie babies when you were like 5 and shit to yo yos and the constant reminder in an upper class neighborhood of how if you didnt wear abercrombie you werent good enough (FUCK THAT) Any way in a relatively intoxicated conversation with two of my good friends last night while drinkin and getting their minds right to go out we came across the topic of stupid shit that has occured over the last few years... How that happened i havent the slightest idea but damn was it funny. Best one was google. Yes google. Think about it websters dictionary actually accepts words on a yearly basis to keep up with the trends of todays youth which has produced words like gaydar or the ability to detect gay people is actually a word. Seriously? yes it is look it up. But google is actually not just the name of a website anymore it can be used as a verb now too. To google, i mean hell i google people all the time when im bored just to see what pops up. what is this world comming to seriously

Frequent reminder

As i sit here at work i realize that i get bored really easily... So i find myself frequently reading the news or looking at other peoples blogs such as my good friend Micah's. If i ever feel like shit or anything like that i can always read that kids random thoughts and just laugh hysterically! I have met a lot of people in the 22 years i have been around but few compare to that kid! I digress though. Yesterday was my 22nd birthday and i was reminded by many people that i wasnt drinking enough... However i beg to differ 22 shots later i made it home in one piece and didnt have a hangover the next day either for some odd reason... I think this might all go back to my fat boy party days of living on the east side and drinking bottles of 151 in a night by myself! Which urban dictionary describes as a one way ticket to the toilet, the hospital, or your deathbed. Yes i did do that on several occasions dont ask me what happened cus i sure as shit have no idea... But i would not change those times for the world!

Thoughts and a random gut check!

In the past few years i have come across many new things in my life that have raised a lot of questions as to how that happened or how it came about... Until a few months ago when i started going to a youth ministry did i start to understand the complexity of some of these things. I am a lot of things but one thing i can say with confidence is that i am not truly a huge fan of organized religion. Now don't get your panties in a bunch over that last statement just hear me out for a second... I do believe in God i just don't like the fact that there are so many rules and regulations as to how i MUST believe in him. For example I pray on a somewhat regular basis i try to read from the bible as well but i dont necessarily believe that i have to sit in a designated building every sunday just to fulfill what i think is my duty to God. I know i have had this conversation with many people and a lot of you agree including a few youth ministers i have spoken to in the past few months. I have God in my life which in my mind is the important thing!

The past week

Over the past week i have been traveling on spring break and holy shit was it a blast! It is nice to know that there is actually some warmth somewhere in the U.S. and not just rust covered cars and cold like in the north. If you could not guess i was down south for about a week in Georgia and Florida! Florida was the shit 85 everyday and no clouds in the sky! Could not have asked for better weather. Driving the Z to and from the west coast was fucking awesome nothing compares to a twin turbo power house nissan engine! No joke feels like a shuttle launch throwing you back into the seat! After that we were rolling PHAT in a jag the rest of the week in ATL! That place has got to be the most diverse city i have ever been to! People are all so accepting of one another its crazy! Not like milwaukee where everything is so segregated! But all in all the trip was a good meens of getting away from the day to day struggle of work and school and just an overall good way to relax and not worry for a week!

Slightly Ironic

So i find it slightly ironic that almost everytime something positive in ones life (i.e. mine) something has to change that positive aspect and turn it into a negative one. How a guy can be such a great guy and have all these qualities but yet because a maturity level is too high its not as much fun to be with them... I find this ironic and troubling if that is seriosuly the biggest worry that someone has.

Random Thought!!

I am currently sitting at work ( a bank), yes i am referred to as a suit by my friends, and random thoughts occur all day long especially on days when it is extremely slow. So in my less than infinit wisdom i was thinking about certain things that have occured today and yesterday and how they affect not only myself but others around me. For instance my less that satisfactory dating life... But this has not proven problematic up to this juncture in time. I have more time and more money than i have had in over three years. Dont get me wrong when i had a girlfriend it was great but i do see both sides to the story. Also I realize that so many of my dreams and aspirations are being left undone. I wanted to graduate from college in 4 years, yeah right that is not gonna happen and at the rate im headed its lookin like 5 or more... I wanted to start my ownm company which i will still do at some point in time. Be succesful at something whether it be sports, my job, a hobbie just something that people can come and ask me how the hell do you do that! Lastly i have been looking at a lot of my friends in envy lately... Which i view as a bad thing due to the fact that this tells me that i am not satisfied with the way i am living my own life. I should be happy with where i am and where my friends are. Not looking at them with angst of someday being them or accomplishing what they are. However there always comes a point where you wish you could do something your friend(s) do which is inherently natural.

March 6, 2009 The Begining

Ok, so this is a new thing to me and I basically am following in the footsteps of some other people who have done blogs. Anyway i digress... Lately I have been brought to a realization of certain truths that occur in life. Of them I notice more and more on a daily basis how much work people put in to just maintain a certain social standing and more or less how nice people get walked all over on a more than regular basis. I have come to grips with the fact that people work too hard for what seems to be what they see as their "piece of the pie" but why. I was thinking the other day I would much rather be poor and happy living pay check to pay check than to be rich off my ass and be miserable. I think for the most part people would hopefully agree with what im saying. The later would be something that i hope more and more people are noticing in their own lives and changing.