As much as i want to say that money isnt everything in this 
world it is becoming painfully clear that it is damn close... As i sit here and look through the books that are my records and so on i realize that i am not in the poor house but i could obviously, givin the current state of the economy, being doing somewhat better off. Now I am not in debt nor will i be for quite sometime just for the sole fact that i have decided to work my ass off for the last few years to pay for college. But i look at success and school and money
and all those things that motivate and drive people into a self-created view of "happiness" and ask myself do i want to work behind a desk for the rest of my life making some insane amount of money and being able to buy whatever useless toy i want... To be blunt about it not really... I would much rather, as it stands right now, make a modest living doing something i love than doing something i hate and driving myself into a state of insanity. Now do i realize that a lot of this is drivin by angst toward me graduating in the next year or so and actually moving on with my life... yes i do but still its the concept that you only live once. Enjoy it!!! If people are not willing to accept the person you are or willing to say how they feel fuck 'em who cares!!! I honestly have realized in the past few days that my time on this planet isnt guranteed i have a number and when its called im gone so why waist precious time doing meaningless things? I hate to admit it but i have not fulfilled a single goal in years... whether it be meaningful or something as stupid as keeping my room clean. Not one thing. when it comes to work though everything i say im going to do i do and i go above and beyond it for the most part... Im ashamed of that at points but i wouldnt change it cus then i would be broke... Anyway moral is that life is short go out have fun try new things and most of all enjoy what you are given becuase you dont know when it will end!!!
world it is becoming painfully clear that it is damn close... As i sit here and look through the books that are my records and so on i realize that i am not in the poor house but i could obviously, givin the current state of the economy, being doing somewhat better off. Now I am not in debt nor will i be for quite sometime just for the sole fact that i have decided to work my ass off for the last few years to pay for college. But i look at success and school and money
and all those things that motivate and drive people into a self-created view of "happiness" and ask myself do i want to work behind a desk for the rest of my life making some insane amount of money and being able to buy whatever useless toy i want... To be blunt about it not really... I would much rather, as it stands right now, make a modest living doing something i love than doing something i hate and driving myself into a state of insanity. Now do i realize that a lot of this is drivin by angst toward me graduating in the next year or so and actually moving on with my life... yes i do but still its the concept that you only live once. Enjoy it!!! If people are not willing to accept the person you are or willing to say how they feel fuck 'em who cares!!! I honestly have realized in the past few days that my time on this planet isnt guranteed i have a number and when its called im gone so why waist precious time doing meaningless things? I hate to admit it but i have not fulfilled a single goal in years... whether it be meaningful or something as stupid as keeping my room clean. Not one thing. when it comes to work though everything i say im going to do i do and i go above and beyond it for the most part... Im ashamed of that at points but i wouldnt change it cus then i would be broke... Anyway moral is that life is short go out have fun try new things and most of all enjoy what you are given becuase you dont know when it will end!!!
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